Sunday, June 20, 2010
Thoughts on Father's Day
It's Father's Day today. Mother's Day was decidedly difficult for me. I kept thinking about the child I wanted to have in my arms, not just in my heart, and it made me very sad that NO ONE saw me as a mother, though I have an angel baby somewhere out there. So now it's Father's Day...and I want to feel that same anger for Mike. He should be a father right now. His child should be breathing and smiling in his arms today, and it's not. At the same time, I know that he doesn't want to make it a big deal, so I've held back...I wanted to get him a card and acknowledge him as the father of my children (past and future...no present), but he doesn't want that. So I say it here: On this Father's Day, I want to thank my husband for being the father I needed him to be in times past, and I want to thank him for the hope he gives me of seeing him be the amazing father he can be in the future. Happy Father's Day MooBear.