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Monday, October 18, 2010

It just wears off so fast!

So, thank GOD I have the fetal doppler (aka heartbeat monitor).  I have minor panic attacks at least once daily that Chicklet's just going to suddenly stop living...I don't know why, I just do.  So, I've been listening to Chicklet's little heartbeat at LEAST once a day to reassure myself that he's doing fine.  I just wish that sense of "aaaah....he's ok" would last longer than an hour!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Oh, thank God!

Chicklet's OK!  We FINALLY had our ultrasound today, and he seems to be just about perfect!  He's measuring RIGHT on track (actually measured a day ahead, but she said they would keep the due date at May 16) with a heart rate of 171 beats/minute.  I'm so ridiculously relieved...I held my breath until we saw the little flickering of the heart. 

PS--I say he, but we have no idea what the actual gender is...we figure, if he turns out to be a girl, she'd probably prefer "he" to "it" just like we do. :-)

Monday, October 11, 2010


My ultrasound's tomorrow at 11am.  I'm a little nervous about it.  The only other experience I have with ultrasound was last year when they told me my baby didn't have a heartbeat....traumatic to say the least.  If I hadn't been able to listen to the heartbeat intermittently over the last four days, I would have had a panic attack by now. 

Here's the scary part: 
My ultrasound last year, the bad one, was on October 12.
Tomorrow is October 12.
My ultrasound was at some place 20-30 miles away, even though there are closer places.
My appointment tomorrow is in the same place.

The coincidence of this nonsense is freaking me out a bit.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Oh wow!!!

So, last time I was pregnant, I bought a fetal doppler...a little wand you use to hear the baby's heartbeat.  See, at my first doctor's appointment, the doctor said she heard the heartbeat...but I couldn't.  I only heard my own.  I had a meltdown in the car on the way home.  Poor Mike, in an effort to make me feel better, let me buy my OWN doppler online....never did hear the heartbeat last time.

Fast forward to now.  I'm currently 8weeks 4days preggo.  I've been using the doppler for about 5 minutes a day, just in case.  (I'm a HUGE fan of just in case)  So, tonight, I'm getting ready to call it quits, when I toot.  Yeah, yeah, silly and gross....BUT....when that gas left my tummy, I heard a little I waited, and reangled....and I heard it!!! I heard Chicklet's heartbeat!!  He's ALIVE!!!!!  It sounds JUST like it's supposed to sound and, while it's still super-faint (he's only a raspberry, for crying out loud!), it was really clear!  SOOOOOO unbelievably excited.  I think I'm more excited now than I was when I got my positive pregnancy test. 

THIS IS IT!!!  I'm going to be a mama!!!  :-) :-) :-) :-)