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Saturday, June 1, 2013


I need to take a moment to talk about, or rather, to write about, some of the signs I've experienced in the last few days. I feel like I spend a lot of my life looking for signs from Charlotte and when I really need them they're so blatant that I can't help but believe in them.

So, about a week ago, we decide to go to my nephew's soccer game. We haven't been to one of his soccer games in months and I have no idea why we decided to go to this one, because it was pretty far away.I took Mia to the park that morning to play, and we got home just a few minutes before we had to leave. She was hot and sweaty and being pretty quiet, but I assumed I had just worn her out at the park. So we get in the car, and we drive to a fast food place to get lunch on the way, because we're running late as usual. We offer food to Mia but she doesn't eat it. I thought this is kind of weird, but I assume she was just tired. Then I'm driving, and we get about an hour away from home, and Mia gets very very quiet. Mike turns around to check on her and she didn't answer. He started asking her questions, and she didn't respond. She starts make a really weird noise, and he said bubbles are coming out of her mouth and her face is a funny colour. I am mediately pull off at the very next exit, as we were on the highway, and as I look up I see that we are literally a quarter mile from a hospital. We get to the hospital, because she's still not responding, & I pull up to the emergency room. When I get out of the car, she starts to cry and whine a little bit, but she's very limp and kind of unresponsive, and I start to freak out a little bit more. It turns out that she had a febrile seizure, which happens in about 10 percent of kids when they spiked a fever. Mia has gone from being perfectly healthy that morning to having a fever of 105 within the span of an hour. Luckily, this type of seizure isn't really damaging, just scary. However, when we had this happen, we happen to be within a quarter mile of the best hospital in the entire area, which we are never ordinarily near, which incidentally had in it a pediatric emergency room separate from the adult emergency room. They took amazing care of her, much better than we would have gotten were we here at the hospital by our house. Incidentally, at the park that morning, we saw some butterflies. I vividly remember telling Mia, " Hey lookMia, a butterfly. Must mean that Charlotte is looking out for us today." And she was. When Mia got sick, she guided us so that Mia got the best care possible.

A little over a week after what happened with Mia, I was on my way to work when someone pulled out in front of me and I was in an accident. I was going close to 40mph, and the woman pulled out only about 10-15 feet in front of me. My car had almost $5000 worth of damage. I was transported to the hospital, and they did an ultrasound on the baby, and he's perfectly fine. The thing is, my airbag really should have gone off, but it didn't. If it had, I don't know if the baby would have been ok. My belly was right there. That morning, as I was walking Mia out to the car, we heard the windchime, and Mia said, "It's Charlotte, Mama." I guess she's looking out for both of her siblings.