I was replying to someone on the Grief & Loss message board tonight and I realized something. There isn't much with regards to having children that I have not done.. Now, granted, some of these things happened within the same labor and birth experience, but still...it's a lot!
I had a year of unsuccessful attempts to try to concieve.
I got pregnant twice while on birth control. Once was regular birth control, and once was on the mini pill while nursing.
I've had a chemical pregnancy, a late miscarriage, a stillbirth, and a live birth.
I've been induced, gone into labor naturally, given birth vaginally, and had a C-section.
I've had two D&Cs: one under complete anesthesia, and one with just an epidural while I was completely lucid.
I had a botched D&C which didn't get everything, causing me to have spontaneous contractions and passing of a lot of stuff two full months later.
I've had a breech baby, a baby with a knotted cord, and a baby with a birth defect (the stillborn--gastroschisis).
The only thing I can think of that I HAVEN'T done is lose a baby in infant death...I'm not going to lie, it terrifies me a bit, because I've gone through every other complication I can think of. Seriously, if anything ever happens to my daughter, I quit life.
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