So, at my 33 week appointment, my doctor said she'd stop my working at my next appointment, 36 weeks, which was during spring break. OK, fine. So I do all my sub plans, make preparations, tell the people at school I'm leaving, etc. etc. etc. I'm also changing schools this year, so it's actually my last week at that school...ever. Crazy. So I go to my 36 week appointment (five days into spring break) and my doctor said, eh, you can keep working until your 37 week appointment since your swelling isn't that bad now. Well, my swelling isn't bad because I've been off work and off my feet for the last FIVE DAYS...ugh.
So I go into work yesterday morning (what would be my first day "back" before leaving again after school on Wednesday...we're talking three days here) and I go up to the sub coordinator...and I didn't say anything. I let her lead, and she told me that my sub was scheduled to start that day. I didn't correct her. I didn't tell them my doctor had given me three more days to work. I totally feel like I'm cheating. Does this make me a COMPLETELY horrible person? I mean, seriously, being there for ONE hour Monday morning caused me to have more swelling than I did the entirety of spring break (stress!!), and I KNOW I'm better off at home...but I feel like I'm cheating. *sigh*
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Almost there...when did that happen?!?!
OK, so I've been freaking out this week. It's my last week of work this week. I'm a teacher, and the stress is making me blow up like a balloon...SO not good...so the doctor told me this is it. I'm also changing schools for next year, which means that this is my last week at this school...where I've been for seven years. So, lots of changes...which has made me feel a little off balance to begin with...
...but then I realized (as the pool for the baby's birthday was being taken at work) that I could feasibly and realistically have a child in a week or two. Whoa, whoa, whoa...when did that happen?? I mean, intellectually, yes, I know that there is a child hanging out in there...and I know that this is a finite time in which she needs to grow...but wasn't I just thinking about hitting 20 weeks? Didn't I just wonder last week whether or not I looked pregnant or just fat? I see my nursery coming together...and we finally bought diapers...and...all of that...but it could actually HAPPEN soon...up until now it's just been kindof a vague, theoretical concept!
Now, don't get me wrong...I am beyond excited to meet her. I can't wait to take care of her, and see her face, and watch my husband hold her for the first time, and read her some of the books I got for my shower (PS--we did the thing where you ask people to bring their favorite children's book in lieu of a card....best idea EVER. We now have a whole library of books filled with inscriptions of love!!).
...BUT...I think what's freaking me out is that I know it's going to be a huge change, and I'm going to have a huge emotional reaction, and there is absolutely NO WAY to prepare for that! I can buy diapers, and pack my bag, and clean the house, but I can't prepare myself to feel....whatever it is I'm going to feel. It's FREAKING ME OUT.
I feel really bad about it, because I don't want poor DH thinking I'm not happy (because I am) or for people to not think I'm excited (because I'm that, too)....but the incessant planner in me is FREAKING OUT about being unprepared!! I know that once she's here and I see her that it will make sense...but it just seems so UNREAL at this point.
...but then I realized (as the pool for the baby's birthday was being taken at work) that I could feasibly and realistically have a child in a week or two. Whoa, whoa, whoa...when did that happen?? I mean, intellectually, yes, I know that there is a child hanging out in there...and I know that this is a finite time in which she needs to grow...but wasn't I just thinking about hitting 20 weeks? Didn't I just wonder last week whether or not I looked pregnant or just fat? I see my nursery coming together...and we finally bought diapers...and...all of that...but it could actually HAPPEN soon...up until now it's just been kindof a vague, theoretical concept!
Now, don't get me wrong...I am beyond excited to meet her. I can't wait to take care of her, and see her face, and watch my husband hold her for the first time, and read her some of the books I got for my shower (PS--we did the thing where you ask people to bring their favorite children's book in lieu of a card....best idea EVER. We now have a whole library of books filled with inscriptions of love!!).
...BUT...I think what's freaking me out is that I know it's going to be a huge change, and I'm going to have a huge emotional reaction, and there is absolutely NO WAY to prepare for that! I can buy diapers, and pack my bag, and clean the house, but I can't prepare myself to feel....whatever it is I'm going to feel. It's FREAKING ME OUT.
I feel really bad about it, because I don't want poor DH thinking I'm not happy (because I am) or for people to not think I'm excited (because I'm that, too)....but the incessant planner in me is FREAKING OUT about being unprepared!! I know that once she's here and I see her that it will make sense...but it just seems so UNREAL at this point.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
9 weeks left!
I have no idea where time has gone! I'm currently sitting at 31weeks/1day, and I only have nine weeks left! I really doubt that I'll go full term, though. I've made the doctor very aware of my family history of large babies (and even MIKE'S family history of it) so I think I'll be induced early. I actually have a strong feeling that she might be an April baby...and I'm ok with that! :-) I WOULD, however, like to do my last Atlantic City trip over spring break, so I hope she holds on in there until at least Easter!
So excited to meet my baby girl!
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So excited to meet my baby girl!
Nursery Pictures
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| Mia's Changing Table/Dresser (Note the cute monkey switchplate cover!) |
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| Close up of the changing pad...so cute! |
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| Mia's Bookshelf (Complete with Amelia Bedilia books!) |
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| Window and window treatments |
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| Mia's crib bedding |
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| Mia's crib from the front |
All we're missing are wall decorations, a new lamp, and a rug, and then this room will be done!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Flutters and fire
So I have two new pregnancy symptoms:
1) She's a mover! Ever since the ultrasound, her kicks have gotten more and more pronounced. Some of them can even be felt from the outside, now. Mike hasn't felt her yet....partially because she kicks so sporatically, and partially because I think Mike's a little impatient and/or frustrated with the process. I don't blame him. They're still pretty light, so it's hard to distinguish them from my heartbeat or breathing movements....but it will be soon!
2) O....M...G....the heartburn!! I'm ready to breathe fire. Seriously. I'm literally hitting the maximum dosage of Tums EVERY day. My doctor also said that I could use over the counter Zantac, but I'm trying to save that for the really bad days...the ones where I take two Tums, and then five minutes later I'm ready to burn down the house again. *sigh* Apparently there's a theoretical truth (to an extent) in the old wive's tale about hair and heartburn....a lot of one leads to a lot of the other. At this rate, I think I'll be giving birth to Rapunzel. Seriously, though...apparently the hormone balance/imbalance that causes heartburn also causes hair to grow....so we'll see!
:-)
23 weeks down, 17 to go!
1) She's a mover! Ever since the ultrasound, her kicks have gotten more and more pronounced. Some of them can even be felt from the outside, now. Mike hasn't felt her yet....partially because she kicks so sporatically, and partially because I think Mike's a little impatient and/or frustrated with the process. I don't blame him. They're still pretty light, so it's hard to distinguish them from my heartbeat or breathing movements....but it will be soon!
2) O....M...G....the heartburn!! I'm ready to breathe fire. Seriously. I'm literally hitting the maximum dosage of Tums EVERY day. My doctor also said that I could use over the counter Zantac, but I'm trying to save that for the really bad days...the ones where I take two Tums, and then five minutes later I'm ready to burn down the house again. *sigh* Apparently there's a theoretical truth (to an extent) in the old wive's tale about hair and heartburn....a lot of one leads to a lot of the other. At this rate, I think I'll be giving birth to Rapunzel. Seriously, though...apparently the hormone balance/imbalance that causes heartburn also causes hair to grow....so we'll see!
:-)
23 weeks down, 17 to go!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
It's a baby! :-)
The baby's fine. Thank goodness. Our big ultrasound went great. All body parts accounted for, in the right place, and seeming to be functioning well. I'm even measuring two days ahead, which ironically (or aptly, depending on how you choose to look at it) is the 14th. Everyone in my family (except Mike) was born on a multiple of 7. I'm the 21, my niece and nephew are both the 7th, my sisters are the 14th, the 14th, and the 28th, my brother is the 21st, and my brother in law is the 7th. It'd be kindof cool for my little chicklet to follow suit.
On a side note....We found out on Wednesday, the 22nd....and we're waiting until Christmas morning to tell family, then Christmas afternoon/evening to tell everyone else...it's really hard! Since it's Christmas time, I've seen my family several times, and it's incredibly hard to NOT use a pronoun...or a name! We've had names picked out since LAST September, so we know the baby's name....and I can't tell anyone! *sigh* One more day...I keep telling myself that telling everyone will bring SO much satisfaction tomorrow. Let's hope we get good reactions...especially since we haven't yet told Mike's parents our name choices. *gulp*
Lastly, I come out on facebook tomorrow. I'm revealing EVERYTHING, from the fact that I'm pregnant (yup, most don't know that) to the fact that it's a ____ (a few of my friends have access to this blog, and I don't want to inadvertently spill the beans should they happen to read this on Christmas Eve...PS--if you're reading this on Christmas Eve, go watch a holiday movie or bake cookies or something! I'm not that interesting!!)
Merry Christmas!
On a side note....We found out on Wednesday, the 22nd....and we're waiting until Christmas morning to tell family, then Christmas afternoon/evening to tell everyone else...it's really hard! Since it's Christmas time, I've seen my family several times, and it's incredibly hard to NOT use a pronoun...or a name! We've had names picked out since LAST September, so we know the baby's name....and I can't tell anyone! *sigh* One more day...I keep telling myself that telling everyone will bring SO much satisfaction tomorrow. Let's hope we get good reactions...especially since we haven't yet told Mike's parents our name choices. *gulp*
Lastly, I come out on facebook tomorrow. I'm revealing EVERYTHING, from the fact that I'm pregnant (yup, most don't know that) to the fact that it's a ____ (a few of my friends have access to this blog, and I don't want to inadvertently spill the beans should they happen to read this on Christmas Eve...PS--if you're reading this on Christmas Eve, go watch a holiday movie or bake cookies or something! I'm not that interesting!!)
Merry Christmas!
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