I had a late lunch with some other yearbook sponsors at the end of last year...late June. As a part of the proceedings, my then-current pregnancy came out. The yearbook rep was asking if I would be able to make it to the adviser holiday get together this year (which was today), and I told her no, as it was two days after my due date.
When Charlotte was stillborn, I texted the yearbook rep to let her know as I did with all of the other people I had told...but I didn't tell the other yearbook advisers as I literally see them twice a year. I don't know them well enough that I wanted to share my personal heartbreak and breakdown with them...
I guess I figured that if I showed up today, clearly not less than a week postpartum, they would be intelligent enough and tactful enough to just keep their mouths shut. Yeah, I'm stupid.
The one adviser had clearly forgotten about it and, when I refused an appetizer, asked me if I was "pregnant or something." I looked down, avoided eye contact, and said very clearly and firmly "no."
The other adviser DID remember that I had told them this, but had somehow gotten the timing lost. She asked how my baby was. I thought it might spoil the mood of a holiday event to say she's dead. I also still do not know or care enough about this woman to tell her about my life. I played it off like she was asking me about Mia.
That was a bit of a kick in the gut. I should have been expecting it, but, stupidly, I felt rather blindsided.
I'm an idiot.