I am having a very hard time believing that we're actually trying again. I'm already tired, and we haven't even begun. The finish line is so far away that I can't even see it right now...
I miss you. I didn't intend to write that, but it's true. I think it every time I think of you, which is all the time. I miss you all the time.
I believe that you left us to protect us. I believe that you knew you were sick and that you left us peacefully and painlessly so that you could be a part of our family in this way, since you can't be with us here, the way we want you to be.
I believe you want a little brother or sister for yourself and for Mia. I believe you're going to do everything you can to help make that happen so that your family can be whole.
I believe you are so strong, and so brave, and so beautiful.
I don't want to put too much pressure on you, angel baby Charlotte, but I really need your help. I really need you to let us know that you love us and that you know that we love you. I really need you to let us know that you're OK with us moving on. I really need you to let us know that you're looking out for us, that your little brother or sister, who doesn't even exist yet, is going to be ok.
I know I'm asking a lot, baby Charlotte. I'm sorry for that. I just need to believe that you left us for a reason....and this is it. This is the only reason that makes sense.
I love you baby Charlotte. I miss you so very much. I will never stop missing you or loving you. You will always be remembered and loved and missed by your Daddy and me, no matter what else happens.