One of my close friends is planning on TTC in the near future...another month or two. I'm a little concerned that she'll be one of those first month trying people, and, if so, I might not handle it well. I've never been a particularly patient person, especially when it's something that I want badly...and the only thing I've ever wanted as much as this was to marry Mike.
Now, in retrospect, the YEARS I spent waiting for Mike to ask me to marry him don't seem that bad. Our life together is really happy, and we just GET each other. It makes sense. It's been three years since we got married, and already the time before seems really distant and fuzzy...I'm hoping that TTC will be the same way...I really hope that, when (yes, when) we have a baby, all of this pain and heartache and exhaustion and frustration will all fade in the happiness and fulfillment that is being a parent. I've got a lot of love that I want to share.
We're currently at the start of cycle nine. One of my friends on the message boards said this is third time's the charm times three, so it's even luckier...I really hope she's right. Again, I'm at the point that, if this IS our month, I'll be on EXACTLY the same time table that I was last year. I'd be due within 2 days of my edd from the last time. I don't know if that's good or bad...I think I would seriously freak out, come October...and, God help us, if anything bad happened again....just, wow.